Regarding Nothing

He seemed like some­one you would meet in a movie, whose life was falling apart and who was attempt­ing to begin some­thing new. Only, this ‘some­thing new’ had its ori­gins in same­ness, and the dri­ving force behind it, medi­oc­rity. His wife and dog, unbe­knownst to him, had planned to leave him for some time now: his pres­ence, his insis­tence upon ‘white space’, bore all the mark­ings of an insuf­fer­ably inanity. Liv­ing in an obscure cor­ner of an increas­ingly insignif­i­cant part of the world, deal­ing with dimin­ish­ing clien­tele (both in cal­i­bre, num­ber, and con­spic­u­ousity), it didn’t much mat­ter what he said next. No-one was listening.

But, you see, they were. At least fifty of them, hang­ing on his every indif­fer­ent word. Such is the metoo­ism of the Inter­net, deserv­ing of its proper-noun-capitalisation as one would cap­i­talise the title of any film of the ‘my-life-is-falling-apart-and-oh-I-hope-something-interesting-would-happen-to-substantiate-sales’ vari­ety. These days, how­ever, not even all such films declare them­selves wor­thy of said cap­i­talised sta­tus. The deli­ciously ambiva­lent “def­i­nitely, maybe” sports no such accou­trements com­mon to film, and, you know, things with names – but its name pro­vides for fas­ci­nat­ing dis­plays of noth­ing­ness in all kinds of con­texts, so it can per­haps be forgiven. I sat across from a work­sta­tion prepar­ing the launch of this and other films in this coun­try on Mon­day, and lis­tened, enthralled, as the male lead declared he was thrilled to hear “def­i­nitely, maybe is releas­ing in Aus­tralia”. Well, that is a non-announcement, now, isn’t it? (Launch­ing on V-day… vacuous?)

Still, when even our most influ­en­tial and award-winning actors and direc­tors lament the dearth (or, per­haps sim­ply the death) of cinema’s golden age, we must pause to con­sider what is being achieved by the broad spec­trum of media before us. All the trends of Inter­net media can­not save us from its dubi­ous cre­ative poten­tial in the face of browser lim­i­ta­tions (I have recently been work­ing myself into a lather over the indef­i­nite lag between multi-touch reach­ing the Inter­net com­pared to the rest of con­sumer tech­nol­ogy — let it be noted, mobile client-side is the future?). All the films in the world can­not save us from the medi­oc­rity of their scriptwrit­ers, as all the blogs in the world can­not save us from trends of buzz­words and analy­sis and not a sin­gle real client or solved prob­lem in sight. Nei­ther can google (that not requir­ing proper-noun-capitalisation as it is used syn­ony­mously with ‘search’) save us, invest­ing its vast resources into online plat­form advances. Plat­forms are not con­tent. Con­tent dri­ves growth. Enough of that. Clooney says we should all watch TV, because that’s where the inno­va­tion is going on these days. I strug­gle to come to terms with that, some­what. Part of me would (hon­estly) be quite con­tent to sit and watch end­less episodes of whichever series is avail­able on DVD. DVD, because, as much as I occa­sion­ally enjoy advertising, I have absolutely no desire to see the same com­mer­cial over again fif­teen times over the course of a sin­gle episode — get your bloody ads on YouTube and if they make con­sumers care enough, they’ll find you… noth­ing wrong with democ­ra­tis­ing TV adver­tis­ing val­ues, except, iron­i­cally, the poten­tially dimin­ish­ing pro­duc­tion val­ues of such ads in light of the decreased expen­di­ture on pro­duc­tion — yeah, that’s what I thought.

The other part of me finds it’s all much the same. We all know The Simp­sons is bril­liant, because it pushes bound­aries and made cer­tain peo­ple in the 1990s acutely uncom­fort­able. Fam­ily Guy fills the void, now, only with­out the coherency. Its near-absurdist “we-don’t-actually-expect-you-to-get-this” irrev­er­ent take on pretty much any­thing is funny, but not for rea­sons we can com­pre­hend. And it’s hardly going to stand the test of time. An ani­mated ana­logue to The Chaser’s War on Every­thing, only less coher­ent. But let’s look at The Chaser for a moment — it is the news. Oh, wait, The Col­bert Report used that line first. At any rate, The Chaser made inter­na­tional media before Stephen Col­bert, for the audac­ity of — wait for it — actions beyond mere commentary.

And there we find it. The mat­ter in which the public’s inter­est is held is not the simpering-yet-somehow-hostile satire, but in the vio­la­tion of the sole sanc­ti­fied role of gov­ern­ment, the defence of its cit­i­zens. The note­wor­thi­ness of this act came not in the vio­la­tion of this respon­si­bil­ity for secu­rity, but the triv­i­al­ity by which this breach took place. Such is the Leviathan in whom we are col­lec­tively engaged by social con­tract: with­out defence against the sta­tus hominum nat­u­ralisbel­lum omnium con­tra omnes as Hobbes rightly pre­sumes it, if we con­sider ‘nature’ after the fall.

The impli­ca­tion, of course, is that our gov­ern­ment is pow­er­less — or, at the very least, pow­er­less to enact that which it is its duty to. C.S. Lewis expresses it thus:

“As a result, clas­si­cal polit­i­cal the­ory, with its Sto­ical, Chris­t­ian and juris­tic key-conceptions (nat­ural law, the value of the indi­vid­ual, the rights of man), has died. The mod­ern State exists not to pro­tect our rights but to do us good or make us good — any­way, to do some­thing to us or to make us some­thing. Hence the new name ‘lead­ers’ for those who were once ‘rulers’. We are less their sub­jects than their wards, pupils, or domes­tic ani­mals. There is noth­ing left of which we can say to them, ‘Mind your own busi­ness.’ Our whole lives are their busi­ness.” (C.S. Lewis, “Will­ing Slaves of the Wel­fare State”, in ESSAY COLLECTION: Lit­er­a­ture, Phi­los­o­phy and Short Sto­ries)

One might argue this is merely the impact of democ­ra­ti­sa­tion of gov­er­nance. That, as the Leviathan power is some­what more dynamic in its head­ship in this present soci­ety, it will nec­es­sar­ily reflect ‘lead­er­ship’ over lives in ways unprece­dented in his­tory, as the will of the indi­vid­ual is closer to that of the state. What plu­ral­ist absur­dity: the exis­tence of democ­racy itself demarks the neces­sity of com­pro­mise, the inabil­ity of man to, inde­pen­dent of the state, agree. Democ­racy is respon­sive to and guar­an­tees the per­sis­tent dis­par­ity of the will of the indi­vid­ual and the State.

The role of the state, there­fore, should be con­strained to that of arbiter and defender alone. Any­thing beyond that is an unnec­es­sary infringe­ment of the rights of the indi­vid­ual. Yet our polit­i­cal clime is such that we assume this nec­es­sary, and, his­tor­i­cally, this is true. We accept the medi­oc­rity of human­ity, cel­e­brate it even. There is noth­ing new under the sun.

And we still trust in our ‘lead­ers’ for poten­tial change. Hello, Kevin, hello, Obama. You are mere men. Your rev­o­lu­tions will fade. Hello, those lead­ers who have come before them. Your names are not remembered.

Make poverty his­tory, cry the same peo­ple who decry government-sanctioned dis­crim­i­na­tion against the poor, the indige­nous, the homo­sex­ual. Their voices are not alone. Make poverty his­tory, cry the same peo­ple who decry government-sanctioned sec­u­lar­i­sa­tion and interest-rate-driven threats to their com­fort­ably pros­per­ous ‘but-not-too-much’ upper-middle class ‘chris­t­ian’ exis­tence. Their agenda is not that of the Christ.

“A hun­gry man thinks about food, not free­dom”, Lewis con­tin­ues in that same essay. What then, do we con­sider? We are hun­gry, though not for food. We are hun­gry for mean­ing that is not forth­com­ing. Hun­gry for the right­ing of wrongs in our eyes; wrongs that are plain to all, but per­sis­tent because of… well, how would you fin­ish that sentence?

Let me find your grace in the val­ley
Let me find your life in my death
Let me find your joy in my sor­row
Your wealth in my need
That you’re near with every breath
In the valley

There is only one mean­ing, one absolute real­ity, one Lord, one faith, and one God worth trust­ing because he is over all and sus­tains all. With­out him, the mean­ing­less­ness of this earth’s seemingly-perpetual abil­ity to decay should have us sur­ren­der to that entirely. Instead, we are to sur­ren­der to Him, or embrace that ambiva­lent indif­fer­ence so ulti­mately char­ac­ter­is­tic of the endeav­ours of humankind.

Missio, Cross’d worship, and why I’m not a recluse

What is a ‘mis­sion’? How do you rec­on­cile the mean­ing you asso­ciate with that and its Latin root, mis­sio, to send, and actual use of the term? Why do we talk about a “mis­sion to do x” and here­after refer to “mis­sion” as though it encom­passed “to do x” itself, rather than the act of sending?

What on earth is a life cen­tred on two bits of wood hur­riedly nailed together and stained crim­son? Do peo­ple wor­ship sym­bols on par­tic­u­larly sug­ary buns?

I think this web­site is a mea­sure of dis­con­tent­ment. I rarely post when there is noth­ing to grum­ble about, because good news is appar­ently bor­ing. This web­site makes me feel guilty. It’s one big occasionally-ugly mir­ror. I don’t look into it when things are good, and pour the bad into it the rest of the time inter­spersed with geeky things… a slightly acquis­i­tive load of rub­bish designed to obfus­cate and cre­ate a false set of val­ues that improve (in the eye of the beholder, for a time) the reflec­tion. It’s easy to for­get these things.

At any rate, blogs are a use­less jour­nal medium. Too much hap­pens in any given day. Yes­ter­day, I installed Quick­Books and realised that absolute morons are able to run their own busi­nesses with good rea­son and it needn’t be so hard after­all. *insert rant about software*

Tax is pre­dictably bor­ing stuff, though, so when Claud sug­gested we go see Becom­ing Jane (con­trary to rumours I dragged her along — though if she hadn’t, I would have done… we enjoyed it for dif­fer­ent rea­sons, I main­tain!) I was there in a mat­ter of… well, about an hour. Some­where in the mid­dle we went shop­ping for food & ate lunch. *insert rant about the film, about the won­der­ful speed-distraction medium that IM is, and maybe others*

Spent a lazy-enough after­noon at her house until a phone call promised poker and food of the bar­be­cued vari­ety at Gareth’s place, which ended in two par­tic­u­larly dim-witted hands, and some inter­est­ing read­ing of Time magazine’s global warm­ing issue. Some of the 51 ideas printed were on the mark, oth­ers seemed a lit­tle less so (energy effi­cient light­ing was one I know enough about to take issue with, hybrid cars were thank­fully nowhere that I could see). *insert rant about global warm­ing bandwagon*

Later, I started con­tribut­ing more car­bon by try­ing to drive Budd’s car (a man­ual, I’d only drive a man­ual lawn­mower in the past) as he lis­tened to his clutch slowly being torn to shreds. *insert rant about manual/auto trans­mis­sion and licens­ing and the like*

There are other funny sto­ries to be shared within that, but each of those com­prises an entire post of its own. I have no inter­est in chron­i­cling my life with that degree of detail. Per­haps if I were a Dick­in­son–esque recluse I’d have time enough to write and lit­tle enough to write about that I might write more. But thank­fully I’m not.

# by Josh Street on April 12th, 2007 Tags: , , ,
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Vodka Jelly

I just got a somewhat-bizarre phone call about how best to mix jelly and vodka. A spot of quick googling later (yes, take that, I just used it as a verb with­out respect­ing your trade­mark, punks) yielded this inebriation-friendly post from the BBC’s web­site:

The idea of vod­ka­jelly is a sim­ple one: get drunk as quickly as you can, by eat­ing a food most com­monly found at young children’s birth­day parties.

The basic recipe is just that — very basic. Make up a packet of jelly, using between a quar­ter and half of the amount of water sug­gested. Top up with as much vodka as you like (or can handle).

Trust the Brits ;-)

Sounds worth try­ing some­time, though… prob­a­bly not some­thing to leave in a family-friendly fridge, and prob­a­bly not with that sort of ratio… ½ Vodka jelly might be a bit much for those of us who would pre­fer not to get totally sloshed whilst eat­ing dessert.

# by Josh Street on February 21st, 2007 Tags: , ,
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FEVA not-marketing, motivation, and red wine

FEVA’s “Pro­mot­ing the Word through Image and Text” con­fer­ence (they will break my link fairly quickly, methinks, but it’s good whilst it lasts) was today, and it rocked.

Ses­sions about archi­tec­ture to cre­ative strate­gies to the the­ol­ogy of “pro­mo­tion” (which we don’t call mar­ket­ing for fear of stir­ring the con­tro­versy pot) to a rather help­ful copy­right ses­sion (albeit one rais­ing more ques­tions than it answered), as well as great food, a com­fort­able venue, and gen­er­ally excel­lent organ­i­sa­tion, etc.

Go along next year.

And, now that pos­i­tive rec­om­men­da­tion is cemented firmly with­out men­tion of the web…

I did, how­ever, take great excep­tion to the web strat­egy speaker, who I am tempted to pour out all man­ner of vit­ri­olic utter­ances against but will attempt to refrain. He essen­tially said that footer keyword-stuffing was fine, as was spam­ming meta tags (though, thank­fully, he acknowl­edged search engines pay “less atten­tion” to them these days — I would put that closer to “insignif­i­cant atten­tion and not worth the markup bloat they so often are”). Every­thing he had to say about con­tent for the web could be sur­mised in the key­word, “key­words”, pay­ing no atten­tion to the dif­fer­ent copy-writing demands of web media and the flow-on effects of organic key­word enhance­ment. Fur­ther, he man­aged to sug­gest online games for youth and prize com­pe­ti­tions as legit­i­mate mar­ket­ing tac­tics, which, to me, seems brain-dead — per­haps I should just say “an unpro­duc­tive use of time”. The entire pre­sen­ta­tion appeared to have been repur­posed from a very basic web 1001 pre­sen­ta­tion to small busi­nesses, with­out much (or any) regard for audi­ence feedback.

For exam­ple, he asked ques­tions at the begin­ning to get an indi­ca­tion of where the audi­ence was at in terms of web pres­ence (I would say well over 90% had a web­site, with prob­a­bly half of that being main­tained in some capac­ity — yes, our web­site is get­ting touched up soon… heh, in all my free time) and then pro­ceeded to com­pletely ignore that (although he did act very sur­prised at the num­ber of hands that went up) and tell every­one about how to get online in the first place. Com­plete with the worst in Pow­er­point pre­sen­ta­tion technique.

Def­i­nitely not a high­light of the day!

Any­way, that aside, I went home feel­ing pretty moti­vated to Get­Stuff­Done™ and started on the three gazil­lion changes pend­ing for the Matthias site… then gave up when Budd called say­ing Borat was on. I’ve gen­er­ally had a great evening, though — a few hours with a glass of red wine and a sense of accom­plish­ment as con­tent takes shape, then a con­ver­sa­tion about using Google Maps to plot some 2,100 retail out­lets effec­tively (no con­sen­sus as to how to achieve this yet, because that’s 2,100 points to be ren­dered client-side as an over­lay, which would prob­a­bly crash some browsers, if not make them run hideously slowly — but the brain is churn­ing over), then watch­ing that crazy movie. Yeah, you’ve got to laugh at it, but… gosh. Really hope they went back and explained it was satire to some of those peo­ple, if not apol­o­gis­ing out­right. Hav­ing said that, I think he’s reached the lim­its of the per­sona; it really got a bit repet­i­tive and pre­dictable (but still evok­ing laugh­ter for shock value) in parts. I still laughed loudly.

Any­way. More to come soon.

Kelly’s Steakhouse at Bondi Junction

View from Kelly's Steakhouse, Bondi Junction, towards Sydney city at night

Good food and even bet­ter steak knives. The knives are spec­tac­u­lar. Some fun was had stab­bing lambs but we shortly desisted upon real­is­ing how much noise we were mak­ing as the knives sailed through the flesh and loudly col­lided with the plate beneath. Scared yet? ;-) I like knives :-)

# by Josh Street on September 8th, 2006 Tags:
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Migraine predictor

Bejew­eled is cool and all, but it’s become com­pul­sive already. Just to con­tex­tu­alise this a bit, Aaron half-seriously asked if I were autis­tic a few weeks back after I asked if a TV displaying/playing noth­ing (black screen) could be turned off because of the noise the tube made. Also, I get pretty bad migraines some­times (there’s one com­ing now, but I want to blog this before I for­get and twenty min­utes will hardly make a difference).

When I’m in sig­nif­i­cant pain (be that mas­sive headaches/migraines w/ var­i­ous assoc. symp­toms, or gen­eral other ill­ness… vom­it­ing etc., or spe­cific phys­i­cal pain) my first motive to “alle­vi­ate” it is sim­ply dis­trac­tion. I’ll start by hop­ping between thoughts as rapidly as pos­si­ble because every thought I land on some­how I man­age to link back to the prob­lem at hand (i.e. pain), and I can only avoid com­ing back to that by ran­domly jump­ing between thoughts before fol­low­ing them to their “log­i­cal” (read: present cir­cum­stan­tial) con­clu­sion. This is, inevitably, pretty use­less… and when I finally give up on find­ing dis­con­nected thoughts I set­tle for pat­terns. If it’s not a headache (i.e. I don’t mind my eyes being open) I’ll trace lines on what­ever sur­faces I can see, or, if I can’t see (/don’t want to open eyes), I’ll invent patterns/logical prob­lems. Which I can never remem­ber after­wards but am aware occurred. And pro­ceed to solve com­pul­sively until the pain dis­ap­pears (gen­er­ally where replaced with sleep).

The thing is, these are usu­ally strate­gies I semi-consciously employ after recog­nis­ing pain. Today it was different.

I would close my eyes at work, try­ing to focus on an aspect of a rather gnarly CSS sit­u­a­tion (web-geek stuff, to demystify/ungeek this post) , and sud­denly the var­i­ous sym­bols in the game would be re-arranging them­selves (or, I would be con­trol­ling them but with­out even think­ing of the game) in my [per­ceived field-of-view? is there a word for imag­ined vision once you close your eyes? I take it that’s nor­mal… it’s not imag­i­na­tion and it’s not synes­the­sia, so… I think that it’s nor­mal]. Nor­mally I can feel headaches com­ing, but some­times I’ll just have a really dull one from star­ing at a screen for too long… it doesn’t par­tic­u­larly bug me and, if any­thing, I was pretty good with screen-time-focus today. Any­way, I leave work and go to bible study at Ant and Sarah’s flat, and am com­pletely fine (if remark­ably full of food fol­low­ing din­ner and Ant’s, err, “21st” cake) until we’re pray­ing… at which point I shut my eyes again and am com­pletely unable to con­cen­trate on what’s going on around me. I’m more aware of a headache when I open my eyes again, but it’s not significant.

Later, Gem is dri­ving back home (for which I’m so thank­ful, because, as will become clear, I really shouldn’t have been dri­ving) and I shut my eyes for a moment — you know that moment, as a pas­sen­ger at night where you can just lean your head back and enjoy dark­ness, momen­tary rest? Then, by the time I open them again (two sec­onds later, max), every­thing is that much worse. I really want to go back to puz­zles in my head to dis­tract from (now appar­ently oncom­ing) migraine.

This is all really strange. These things aren’t meant to hap­pen on their own, its some weird reflex that’s meant to hap­pen when you’re allowed to shut your eyes and clench your teeth to respond to headaches, not before… time to crash. Speak­ing of which, that’s what I’m going to do now. *rearranges puzzles/sleeps*

# by Josh Street on June 8th, 2006 Tags: , , , , , , ,
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How do you take your tea?

Not con­tent with the usual meth­ods of food-related pro­cras­ti­na­tion, I bring you this question:

How do peo­ple who wear glasses all the time man­age hot drinks? I’m not that blind, only wear­ing read­ing glasses for longish stints and/or when headaches exist on the verge of con­scious­ness. How­ever, when nego­ti­at­ing a cup of tea, I find it sud­denly rather dif­fi­cult to see:

Me, unable to see through the steam from my drink.

# by Josh Street on May 9th, 2006 Tags:
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